Contemplation

I am just beginning to feel as if I have a brain, rather than just a body that can only just sleep or drag itself to the toilet ! I had not anticipated just how knocked out and exhausted I’d be by this process, although all the information available had made it clear. Healthwise, I am progressing as expected. I had a very slight cough, so have been subject to lots of infusions and antibiotics just to be very careful and sure. My hair hasn’t started falling out yet, so my baby stem cells are not taking over just yet but that’s due in the next day or so.  All readings (bloods, heart beat, lung function, blood pressure, if it can be measured it is) are taken at least twice a day, so any changes are rapidly noted.

There is a lot of time for contemplation, although if I am more honest by contemplation I probably mean light dozing. I’ve been reading a lot, very light so far but I have some more in depth books I may get to. Although I still prefer paper books, the advantage of electronic books is clear as I have heaps to chose from, and with wifi easy access to more if desired.

Something I hadn’t anticipated is the advantage of time to actually listen to music, both classical and light, as the lighter stuff tends to spiral in my brain sometimes so I am going a bit more classical. Who’d have thought I’d be listening to opera and Russian classical ?

And yes of course I’m crocheting, thank god for a simple, repetitive activity even if Andy is going to hate the end product 😉 how daggy can I make this blanket ? Boredom hasn’t really been an issue yet, but I suspect that’s because fatigue is the dominant trait and I have various light, involving activities to do when there is any energy. Yoga, no chance at all and some light meditation is about as much as I can manage.

A major focus is making sure I don’t just surf endlessly on social media, as that’s a sure way for me to go really vacant and end up not having really used a lot of time but feeling very unsatisfied. So, I’m loving social media and emails, but keeping it to a couple of distinct times a day rather than endlessly dipping into the phone.

Sleep is still an issue, so my focus for the next few days is not to doze so much during the day, and try to get a decent night of sleep !

From MacBeth Act 2 Scene 2

Methought I heard a voice cry ‘Sleep no more !
MacBeth does murder sleep’, the innocent sleep,
Sleep that knits up the ravell’d sleeve of care
The death of each day’s life, sore labour’s bath,
Balm of hurt minds, great nature’s second course
Chief nourisher in life’s feast,–

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